Today I was reminded of all the reasons I want to leave Texas! I've lived in some part of Texas since I was 9 years old. I moved to Austin in 1997, I've seen the city change & not for the better. A lot of the apartment complexes I used to live in on the South side of Austin have been replaced with condos, cafes, & small stores. Traffic went from bad to worse over the years. An influx of people moving to Austin has made IH-35 a practical non-stop traffic jam, & there are always accidents.
I hate the fact that Texas is full of "good ol' boy" Republicans. Men whom are rich & pass policies based on the need of their pocketbooks rather than the general public's needs. I find their form of conservatism to be lacking in simple humanity. They pass laws contrary to the welfare of the people, & are slow to pass laws that would actually lift the burden off the poor a little. Currently the female Police Chief is fighting with the governor Greg Abbott. She's directing the Austin Police Department not to ask questions about a persons' immigration status, & she doesn't want people to be incarcerated just because they're "illegal". Abbott is threatening to cut funding not only to the police department but the courts also. He also cut funding to Planned Parenthood. But this pales in comparison to my own issues.
On 1 occasion when I was waiting to be admitted to Shoal Creek Hospital, looney bin, the doctor that was interviewing me flat out told me "Texas is 49th in the United States for mental health care". That was years ago, & let me tell you it has gotten much, much, worse. I went to Psychiatric Emergency Services today, used to be back in the 90's & early 2000 that name was as it suggest, if you were having a total meltdown you could go there & they would hook you up with what you needed, today I was there, people waiting to be seen said that this was their second or fourth day returning to try to get medication. By the time I got to talk to anyone as to the reason I was there I was told "the doctor is done for the day". Before I got Medicare, the way I got mental health services was to go to the hospital, you would walk out with a prescription with 2 refills, & numbers to call once you got home for follow up services. They even had a regular doctor that would help out with any non-mental ailments. Brakenridge Hospital built a whole psychiatric floor, it's basically decoration, I've been there twice, the doctors won't give you any medication. The State of Texas doesn't consider mental illness as a real handicap so they do everything to hinder people getting help. Which it costs them more in the end because then these people start going to the hospital even though they can't afford it.
After that fiasco I went to the store to buy some snacks to take to my friend's place thinking I got my food stamps today, wrong. They cut off all my benefits which means $104 will be taken out of my check for Medicare. That's money that I can't afford to lose all because I worked for Pizza Hut for 4 days, unreal. That puts me further back as far as buying out of the lease. Well, all I can do is my best & pray. Hamdullah, my dad has offered to send me money, & I'm going to sell a gun left behind by my narc ex-husband. I will lower the prices on my jewelry again as only 1 person has offered to buy anything from me, & I will attempt to sell my bed & dining set. I really don't want to drag this stuff with me because I can't afford the storage fees. I need to lower my expenses. I will never work again unless I can find something off the books, I'm going to file for a re-determination of my disability check, I'm also going to continue writing while going to school & volunteering. Tomorrow I'm calling the boss of the apartment complex's manager to see if they will have some mercy on me & lower the penalties of buy out of the lease by $200.
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